My battle with food

So as I try and figure out my aches and pains, I will try and stick to my healthy eating. Food has always been my strongest challenge. I realized I do a lot of comfort eating, every time I stress out even a little bit, I turn to food-a lot of food. Right now I am going through a tough time in my life and my instincts make me want to reach out to food all the time. I am always walking to the fridge to find something to eat but ever since I started trying to lose weight I always feel guilty and disgusted every time I binge eat and then I feel like throwing up. It has been so hard trying to fight being a bulimic and if I can make a confession I would say that I have succumbed to the act a few times.

Its a struggle but I am still trying to build a healthy relationship with food. Since I started like a week ago, I have cut out all fast foods, no more burgers, fries or anything unhealthy from fast food restaurants. This is going to be difficult but I am going to do my best. I had also decided to cut out soda and juice from stores but I had to reverse the decision on the juice because I love juice and they always say a change in eating habits should be something you can sustain for the rest of your life if need be. I love juice and saying I could never drink it would be ridiculous and would be setting myself up for failure so I have decided to cut back on drinking of juice to much less that I used to. I know this will reduce the sugar I take in.

I am a good cook so that works in my favor because I end up cooking all my meals and in that way I know what goes into all that I eat. Although sometimes it is hard to know how many calories I eat because I always put in alot of ingredients like garlic, pepper and a lot of seasoning.

I also decided to make sure I have my dinner before 8pm and have nothing else after that time. This is sometimes hard because my boyfriend and I go to sleep very late and he tends to snack a lot during the night time. But I am working on that and so far so good.